Ok.Everyone.Here it goes!I cant sleep my mind wont seem to stop thinking abt wht to do or damage Ive done.This in my 2nd round.Vlcd15, well tech. Vlcd16 once the morning comes. But I have to admt I have cheatd almost evryday..I know its soooo bad!I started out ok not really too hungry..did fine.Then the 3rd 4th 5th day came along starving,famished! Played around a lil w my doses sme days were better than others but for the most part Ive takn a bite of something here or there since well...the 3rd or 4th day of my vlcd.I cd not help myself! Being around a 2yr old all day w there snacks and preparing what "we" would consider "normal" dinners for my family I just havnt had the will power. And that is just so not like me..at all!Once I put my mind to something I pretty well do it, and do a darn good job at that. I didn't even have ths hard of a time.well sort of with my first round. No definitly did not have this difficult of time w R1. So I had to ask myself "do I have a problem? Am I addicted to food?"Granted I am slowly coming out a what u might or may consider a somewhat deep depression or maybe not as bad but something more like winter blues(I live in utah..it pretty common here so they say).That & the whole weight thing has really got me down & made me believe I am a true failure since my last pregnancy.So granted I didn't start out R2 with the greatest mind set but I wasn't going to get any better..especially since I weighed myself a wk prior to sarting the diet & went from147-161 since mid Dec But I sort of expected it.I ate worse than I ever in my life whole grown adult life those 2 mnths, & really it wsnt even "that" bad. Normally I eat fairly well.( I was depressed!)So no, dont think I am addicted, but cd not figure out why the heck my food craving were so out of control.Well I just started Tom yesterday.Usually the wk or 2 b4 TOM MAJOR PMS! & also endless pit in my gut! I also upped my dose frm 200iu to 225iu close to 250iu, just to see. So I started out from 175 and up bck dwn to 150iu yesterday.Finally not so hungry. So my ? Is is bcus Tom arrived or u think my dose all along was too high? & what can I do now to get on track?I really need this to work for me, I just can't bare the thought of failing another attempt at these stupid pds left to shed due to my 105lb weight gain due to my lst pregnancy. I just want to be 125 again!Any advice please send it my way I will take anything.& please be nice, I really have been struggling...in all aspects. Thk u! Oh I am at 158.8 now. Weighed 1 wk prior to gorge 161.4 gained tht wk ws up 166 gorged my way to 170.4, so from that have lost abt 11 lbs but really consider it like a 2-3 lb loss so far..better than nothing.

Thanks so much! I need all the encouragment I can get! I hope one day I can be the one to give all the time instead of receiving it!...I will be. I will be healthy again one day mentally and physically...one day. (: