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    Hi All,
    I've been visiting this site and it seems to me this group has so much experience, knowledge and support!
    I am a single woman, not in a relationship, support myself, except for
    work, I am quite alone much of the time...I just need to confide in someone...
    I am in R2P2D18...and today I totally blew it! I have been at 150 since starting this round... no, make that
    a loss of .8 lbs. in 18 days! It's all my own doing...I admit. I am having the hardest time just committing to the protocol.
    My goal has been to reach about 124 lbs. - supposed to be healthy for my 5' 3" small frame.
    I've been feeling a lot of anxiety and, once again have been turning to food for comfort. I started out today OK, but,
    I am sitting here with a glass of cabernet, and I know I am going to pay for my transgressions today...which include:
    about 3/4 a cup of trail mix, 1/2 cup popcorn, 1 Hershey miniature, 1 almond crunch Trailmix bar, and to top it off
    I came home from work just frazzled and made fried mozzarella cheese. I think the more I feel bad about slipping the
    worse I feel about myself..then I just want to soothe myself with some other food. Maybe that next taste will be
    enough, maybe that next one... thankfully I'm not hungry at all now.

    I could really use some words of encouragement that...maybe someone else has been this low and then picked themselves
    up, got right back on track and stayed the course. Was there a turning point for you that told you "this is it, no more
    fooling around, I have to stick with this!" ? Even as I ask this...I know, I know...that we each have to be ready to truly
    commit.

    I do have another question... as its day 18 of a 43 day round....do you think I totally blew it? Do you think there may be
    a possibility that I may turn this around? Again...I can only imagine, that is totally up to me.

    Maybe it would feel less futile if I knew someone else has been in this "place", too.

    Sorry for such a rambling post... I would truly appreciate any insight...any comments, words of wisdom.

    Thanks for reading,
    Marie
    • hCGDietAuthorcaidan.ice
    • TimeJan 29th 2010 edited
     # 2permalink
    Marie,

    You are not alone. And you CAN pick up and go on. So you went of protocol and ate things you shouldnt have. You know it and you have accepted it. It has set you back but it hasnt stopped you. You cant change it, but you can change what you do from here on out. You can commit from today onward if you want to.

    So glad you are here at this forum. You can come here anytime for support, info, or to vent. whatever, thats why we are all here.

    Dont give up Marie. We are so used to giving up on ourselves and turning to food. You dont have to. You can make this change. You have taken the first steps by coming here.

    Hugs to you!
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    I'm having to rethink everything I do at this point too - I'm so used to using food and wine too. I have been trying to be very gentle on myself, lots of down time, as much sleep as I can get, nice detox baths. Take this time to nuture yourself and start some new habits. Journaling helps too! :)

    Tracey
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    caidan,

    Thank you. Your message and kindness really helps...
    I have given up on myself so many times, but I
    want this time to be different. I'm really glad that
    I joined this group... thank you so much.

    Marie
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    You are most welcome.

    Are you doing this on your own or through a clinic? If you have any questions at all, please ask.
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    Thanks for being honest! How about a hot relaxing bath as a de-stressor or renting a movie?
    I too am single. You can pick yourself up and move on!
    Mary Anne
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    Tracey,

    I've been wanting to sleep so much.... I actually picked up epsom salts thinking about taking a detox bath.
    I've journaled in the past, and appreciate that reminder, thank-you. So, I think this weekend is a good time to
    re-adjust, and to remember that I'm worth it...each one of us is, right. Amazing how much I have to remind myself
    of that--- yet, I don't hesitate to say to another: "take care, you're worth it!" Thanks again, Tracey.

    Marie
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    Mary Anne,

    Thank you, too for your response. Already, I feel so not alone.
    I picked up some movies from the library, actually... and plan
    on that tonight. I am really glad that I joined in this group.
    It's funny, part of feeling alone is not feeling that friends & family
    would understand me injecting myself and living on 500 cals. to lose
    weight. And yet, this weight issue seems to be my life's issue....as
    if everything hinges on my success or failure. Even as those words
    pour out, I realize it's me that has made my weight my life's issue. But
    it's hard to ignore that since I was in about 3rd grade that seems to be
    what was "pointed out". No matter how good my grades or how kind I was,
    or how good a citizen I am.... Maybe it's me that has to let go of those
    judgements...

    Thanks again Mary Anne...tonight - a movie.
    Best,
    Marie
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    caidan,

    I am doing this through a clinic. I really like the naturopathic doctor. She is very kind
    and sensitive. I think my dosage is good, too. I can really admit that I have not been
    as much physically hungry as much as wanting to eat out of anxiety and stress.
    I will ask if I have any questions, thank you. Are you doing this on your own or through
    a clinic?

    Best,
    Marie
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    Marie,
    I am doing this on my own as is one of my older daughters. I am glad that you have the support of a naturopath.

    Yes, it is easy to fall back on comfortable habits of eating to calm anxiety or stress. Now every time you feel like straying off protocol remind yourself that the food is not worth it.

    Coming to a place where you feel good about yourself is important. Dont blame yourself for feeling like your weight is such a big issue. We are bombarded from childhood about what is acceptable and good by the media when in reality, it has nothing to do with looks or body image. We are just conditioned to place too much value on the outward appearance.

    Dont get me wrong, it is important to be a a healthy weight and it sure feels good to meet societies expectations, because quite frankly, most people DO look better at a slim weight. But that doesnt make us who we are. On the inside. It has nothing to do with what we bring to or offer this world.

    You will be and are the same good person you were before you started this journey on HCG. You can meet your goals of weight loss and this protocol has helped so many of us put food in its proper perspective and place in our lives.

    Sorry for the rambling post. Go enjoy your movie. You deserve it.